i want to book a studio and go recording!
where is all my time going :(
i need a new ipod.
i currently have so many thousands of new songs but i cant dump them in cos my pathetic 4gb nano was already filled long ago.
so annoying.
i want ipod video 60 gb!!
now i have to keep deleting older songs if i want to put in any new ones and its just so saddening to have to delete anything.
i deleted my ENTIRE Bach Mass in B minor because it was SO huge and t aking up so much space i swear i wanted to cry when i was deleting it =(
i want to watch Paranoid Park and The Other Boleyn Girl!! XD
and and Away From Her and Kite Runner and Reservation Road.
i need time time time.
and i still want latin and spanish classes.
and my grade8 theory.
darn school and As and everything.
there is never any time to do anything i actually WANT to do.
dont say i’m out of touch
with this rampant chaos- your reality.
i know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge:
the nightmare.
i built my own world to escape.
Add comment February 2, 2008 Serah
today made it clearer than ever:
do not fit in.
have never fit in.
and do not care whether or not i fit in.
only one more year to go babyyy (:
wait, ten months to be more exact.
and then i’m out of here and i never ever need come back.
superficiality, pretence, politics…
really i’m sick of this place.
which makes my weekends all the more precious.
there the love is overwhelmingly abundant.
there i belong.
hello you(:
i’m still very glad you’re in my life.
Add comment January 31, 2008 Serah
200 more words.
sighs and stares blankly at half completed econs assignment which is basically nothing but a whole string of gibberish.
i have no idea why my right upper arm near the shoulder just hurts so fucking much.
plus it feels swollen when compared to my left.
darn. and its been like this the whole day.
hmm the left only hurts when i stretch.
but the right is like this, perpetual throbbing ache even when i’m not even moving a muscle.
i really hope it gets better soon =(
i need to shop! haha.
i listened to that song i saw on your playlist.
its scary isnt it?
i dont want that to happen to us.
-anberlin: a day late.
Add comment January 29, 2008 Serah
主啊 我要回到祢身旁
now i come right before You with my hands lifted up
and my heart humbly bowed at Your work on the cross
as You hung there and died You were paying the price for my life
Lord i’m sorry for being suicidal.
You are my strength when i am weak
You are the treasure that i seek
You are my all in all.
seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord to give up i’d be a fool
when i fall down You pick me up
when i am dry You fill my cup.
You will always be my strength and guide, all i will ever ever need.
Father forgive my foolishness.
祢恩典够我用 (:
Add comment January 28, 2008 Serah
the bridge is crossed;
so stand and watch it burn
beyond the point of no return.
Add comment January 27, 2008 Serah
oh no.
its definitely not easy to try and persuade someone from taking his own life especially when you yourself are suicidal.
this is how far we’ve gone.
and this time, there is no turning back.
return to me salvation.
Add comment January 25, 2008 Serah
interesting msn conversation.
chemistry reactivity series, syc, “string a melody to your bio text book and treat it as music to be memorized”, “Choir’s not exactly an examinable subject that can be used in uni entry ya noe?’, “nevermind i took SAT alr.and my score’s enough to take me to some american uni!”, “Then how you join SYC liddat!?”
yes. fascinating discussions between me, sara and mr albert tay.
found out sara’s giving school a miss tmr too. HAHA PARTNERS IN CRIME INDEED!
my nose is so annoying. cant sleep at night cos its just so clogged up.
Add comment January 22, 2008 Serah
i’m sorry.
there’s only this much i can do.
nothing else, nothing more.
please dont expect anything else from me.
i’ll only fall short of all these expectations.
and its become impossible to go on.
there’s only so much a person can take.
so the question is,
does it make you a terrible person if you just reach your limit?
Add comment January 18, 2008 Serah
i probably shouldnt be feeling this way.
but somehow its come to a point where it just doesnt matter anymore.
sorry to the people whose texts i ignore or take very longg to reply.
i’m really not in the mood.
what’s wrong with you?
Add comment January 17, 2008 Serah
i am in such a bad mood now that even the text from him did little to cheer me up.
no, wait, in the first place, i’m in a bad mood because of him, isnt it?
well.
maybe not.
i hate school.
nevermind.
just TEN MORE MONTHS TO GO, BABYYYY.
then i’ll be out of here for GOOD.
(read: I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT WAIT.)
Add comment January 16, 2008 Serah
i think this monday/long break before pe/go library use com thing could become a bad habit.
debbie’s currently staring at whatever i write -.-
HAHA. and sighing at every single thing i type.
oh well.
i think i need to actually get down to doing work soon, but =(
rah.
i have done little of lit homework compared to the hard working dilligent AHers.
poor me.
and i still have not handed up gp essay outlines.
i think i might give up on you.
somehow.
maybe i already have given up.
so is that good or bad?
but then again.
ah. town tomorrow.
like, finally.
i desperately need retail therapy.
maybe it’ll help to improve this perpetual terrible mood i’ve been in for these past two weeks.
thing is, i dont even quite know why i’m in such a bad mood these days.
maybe, it all comes down to you once again.
this is highly pathetic.
just like having to stay back in school and wait TWO AND A HALF HOURS for freaking PE to start is pathetic.
how much more can i lose?
1 comment January 14, 2008 Serah
“i wrote this song for somebody special;
its called Someday”
It’s the biggest storm in years they say.
Couldn’t take a plane so I hopped a train
I’d like to stay, in a stormy winters day
so I’ll come back to you someday
As the states rolled by
its all so clear
I’m everywhere but never right here
It’s always the same
constant change.
But I’ll come back to you someday
So close so far
so long the world
spin me away
I drive all night just to see your face
The way you touch the way you taste
Even if only for a day
I’ll come back to you someday
I speak the truth its all i know
As your tears fall to the snow
and we both know
That tonight I can’t stay
but I’ll come back to you someday
Add comment January 13, 2008 Serah
so completely exhausted and sick of this game, but yet it was heaven.
embrace the paradox
Add comment January 13, 2008 Serah
i know what you did last summer night.
look what you’ve done
you’ve made a fool of everyone
i won’t come back
my world has fallen down.
leave the past in the past
gonna find the future
and misery loves company
well, so long
you’re gonna miss me when i’m gone.
Add comment January 12, 2008 Serah
today was a highly amusing day.
tomorrow your blood will run cold.
Add comment January 11, 2008 Serah
herland is a boringly dry book.
…
slacked the whole of last night talking to people on msn.
haha finally spoke to joash after so long (:
i dont want to do history tutorial =(
darn it.
aching aching aching from mass pe yesterday.
well not exactly mass since it was only our class but still.
i should take the baby sister on a people tour soon ahaha.
crescent cca day tomorrow.
to go or not to go. hmm.
thank you, you made my day (:
oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLY =)
Add comment January 10, 2008 Serah
your little piece of heaven turns to dark.
sometime you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
the precious moments are all lost in the tide
they’re swept away
and nothing is what it seems.
how strange.
since i am so highly machiavellian, why is it that i can get everything i want except that one thing i want most?
i don’t believe this.
Add comment January 9, 2008 Serah
Machiavellianism
- the term some social and personality psychologists use to describe a person’s tendency to deceive and manipulate others for personal gain.
took a personality test on this and the result was that i’m a High Mach. 75%.
HMM.
take the test here.
by the way, we did this during lit lesson today.
interesting or interesting.
2 comments January 7, 2008 Serah
so beautiful, and so painful
i am tired =(
sat: didnt go down for the photo shoot in the end due to.. certain things.
churched in the afternoon for youth.
dinner with the rents.
church today as usual.
my ipod died on me.
i think there’s something wrong with it lately tsk.
my tummy’s hurting again rah.
finished annotating two lit poems.
i should start the essays soon.
gp book reviews.. well, i’ve got the points. just have to write them out onto a proper piece of paper and make them sound more substancial i suppose.
i have yet finish math tutorial on diff eqns.
shit.
and i also have yet to finish global economy notes for history.
double shit.
crescent cca day on friday.
if jollin can get me a choir shirt then i’ll go back haha.
i miss my kids.
and i need sleep :(
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS JEN THAM! XD
i think i should start reading duchess of malfi soon.
i doubt reading the plot summary counts.
hmm.
and all my thoughts are running randomly today.
they sound so fragmented.
i could start writing gothic lit.
and speaking of that, NIC! i want your angela carter =(
what if what if what if.
school tmr.
a FULL week of lessons.
and mass pe.
shoot me.
i miss town.
and i want gareth gates, shayne ward’s and backstreet’s new albums.
already got my ryandan.
and i still havent gotten kelly clarkson’s new album.
i feel pathetic.
and i wonder where my 30 bucks popular voucher went.
i want to watch/read The Other Boleyn Girl.
and i want to read The Pact again.
finished If I Am Missing Or Dead in one day.
it was interesting.
i’m hearing strange songs.
but somehow all i want to hear is my phone’s text message alert tone.
wishful thinking wishful thinking.
i dont want to lose this fight.
i want to learn violin.
it feels so wierd not having any more music lessons now.
i really should start my grade8 theory finally and finish it once and for all.
life keeps getting in the way
hello beautiful.
i think i’m not making sense anymore.
call me when you’re sober.
gothic lit gothic lit gothic lit.
beautiful haunting voice.
i’m so tired of being here.
there’s just one thing i need from you for now.
i just need to know.
Add comment January 6, 2008 Serah
Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can’t watch you walk away
Can I forget about the way it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we’ve been through
Could I wake up without you every day?
Would I let you walk away?
No, I can’t learn to live without
And I can’t give up on us now
Oh, I know I could say we’re through
And tell myself I’m over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I’d fail cause I, I just can’t live a lie
Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me?
And all the reasons that make loving you so easy
The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe
The way you know just what I mean
I guess it’s gonna have to hurt,
I guess I’m gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I’ve loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it’s gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It’s sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.
I know there’s a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life’s so bitter sweet.
Add comment January 5, 2008 Serah
first day.
pretty pathetic start i would say.
all the teachers we wanted to stay were changed. and those we wanted changed, remained.
at least math was a fortunate exception.
still its depressing enough.
and it really didnt help that you were all that was on my mind.
Add comment January 2, 2008 Serah
overnight prayer meeting ended at like, four.
mummy almost fell asleep driving home.
package of adorable polar bears from gracey XD
school starts TOMORROW omg.
Your unfailing love is my comfort. (:
Add comment January 1, 2008 Serah
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